They Might Be Giants at the MD Science Center 

personal call from Dr B today-should I feel special?
it was negative, which I pretty much felt it was going to be. surprisingly, I'm okay with it. no tears this time, which I think is a first. and I don't have to cook tonight, P's picking up dinner which is always a bonus.
now, waiting to bleed; then 21 more days on the pill.

this cycle my skin was punctured 47 times with a needle, wonder how high I can get the count next time...

beta this morning. of course no one called on a sunday over a holiday weekend. why it couldn't wait till tomorrow...we shall see.

we really must be approaching the end of the world with all the horrible, horrible things coming out of Baltimore in the last few weeks. 3 children were found beheaded in their apartment by their mother yesterday. we were blindsided by this story watching the news last night-I burst into tears and starting yelling at P to turn off the tv. it's so unbelievable. how can someone do that? the kids were 9 & 10.
sometimes I really really hate living near Baltimore. in the last month there was the abandoned 3 yr old girl & the 17 yr old mom who killed her 1 mth old twins. and they wonder why people don't want to live in the city. it makes me sick to think about those poor children. the mother found them.

P said tonight "you are probably pregnant" oh how I wish...
3 more days

make
the
cicadas
stop!!

it's driving us batty, the constant noise. they really are the stupidest bugs too.

1 week left, no symptoms what so ever...

like my new template? I was feeling dotty

today starts a new 2 week wait-14 days till we go on holiday! (that sounds much more exciting than saying 'we're heading to the ocean in 2 weeks')

hehe-P's incredibly jealous that I have a Gmail address before him!

we're in the incredibly boring part of a cycle-first week after the big O...not much going on except for Paul shoving pineapple at me every day. STOP!

did start progesterone suppositories aka the magic bullets, let the moodiness begin!

wake me up in two weeks

all done. just the long wait till the beta on 5/30. 3 follies, not so bad after all, I guess, we've gotten pg with 2 before. hell, I guess the very first time we got pg with just 1-and as 'they' say, 'that's all it takes'

Jenn came out to the house for an acu treatment-she put 4 needles in my ear and man, one of them sent a charge through my whole body-it was wild!

had an acupuncture treatment tonight, both of us got to be in the room together. P's a trooper for doing this with me. gonna have one tomorow afternoon sometime after the IUI as well. maybe this will be the thing that makes it work this time. if nothing else, I feel more at peace that this whole entire situation is out of my hands now, I've done all I can.

ask me if I still feel like that in 2 weeks though.

triggered last night at 11 pm, we're all set for IUI tomorrow at 11 am, P does his thing at 9 am. yesterday's u/s showed a follie popped up on the right side which is good, and 3 on the left. at this point we are hopeful it will work-it should, I got pregnant the other 3 times we did injectibles, but the issue is more about staying pregnant. that's not so easy to do, sadly.

congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy
bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything.
You must be so proud


which happy bunny are you?
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yesterday's bloodwork: estradiol 276, day 4 stims
today's bloodwork: estradiol 350, day 5 stims. ultrasound showed 2, maybe 3 follies on the left side, a bunch of too small ones on the right. not exactly what we were hoping for. *ahem* the words "poor responder" came up in conversation. great-I can add that to my title of "habitual aborter" as well.

most likely converting to an IUI. disappointing.

the Repronex shots are hurting wicked bad this time. each cheek hurts, don't wanna shot there tonight. I get to do 4 shots today-woohoo, since I need to reload the Follistim pen. that thing is like a freaking IQ test-"if you can put together the Follistim pen, successfully stick yourself in the belly, and keep track of all the meds/appointments/etc, you are smart enough to be allowed to procreate"

Mother's Day 2001: 10 weeks pregnant, told our families
Mother's Day 2002: sad, crappy day
Mother's Day 2003: pregnant again, but just waiting to miscarry, pretty crappy day
Mother's Day 2004: stimming for IVF

we're cleared! stims start tomorrow. Follistim and Repronex-P will go back to work giving me the shot in my bum. with the Lupron, that's 3 needles a day, how exciting.

nothing, dry as a bone. Dr B sent me for b/w today, I forgot to peek at the lab slip when I was signing it to see what he was checking. I'll just wait for the call tomorrow.

on a happier note-we tried out the Sleep Number beds and picked one we like! woohoo, we'll prolly buy it this weekend. no mre springs in our backs!

sigh waiting, waiting....

saw Acupuncture Barbie today-good session. said it should 'get things flowing'

why aren't I bleeding yet? I want to get started-only one shot a day isn't enough!

ow, bugger bugger bugger. tonight's shot in the thigh hurt like a mofo. bled a little and I have a lump.

eek, been so busy lately haven't updated.
recent events:
1. first appt w/ acupuncturist on thursday. went very well, P and I both liked her. she looks like Acupuncture Barbie but I won't hold that against her!
2. spotting has started today-new cycle should start in next day or 2 and then the excitement begins
3. discovered sub q shots do not hurt in the thigh-bonus, more places to shoot up!
4. Adam's first communion today-he wore a blazer, pants and white bucks that his dad & Uncles John, Matt, & P have all worn as well. he looked like a very short Pat Boone. I swear my MIL cannot throw anything away